Inis ka na ba? Mainis ka, dali!

... Pero pag nainis ka nga hindi ko alam kung ano'ng gagawin ko.

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I'm probably just waiting for you to tell me to leave you alone.

I dread that moment, but understand that the reason why I'm pushing you is to convince myself that you'll never send me away.


I just miss you so damn much.

When you walk away
You don't hear me say
"Please, oh baby don't go."
Simple and clean is the way
That you're making me feel tonight
It's hard to let it go

You're giving me too many things lately
You're all that I need
You smiled at me and said
"Don't get me wrong, I love you.
But does that mean I have to meet your father?
When we are older, you'll understand what I meant
When I said no.
I don't think life is quite that simple."

The daily things, like this and that
And what is what
That keep us all busy
Are confusing me
That's when you came to me, and said
"Wish I could prove I love you
But does that mean I have to walk on water?
When we are older, you'll understand
It's enough when I say so
And maybe some things are that simple."

Hold me, whatever lies beyond this morning
Is a little later on
Regardless of warnings
The future doesn't scare me at all
Nothing's like before


Utada Hikaru

sana mamatay na 'ko

Everytime I walk away, something happens that brings me back to you.
We're bound, and I love you more than ever.

"Minsan iniisip ko kung better off ba 'ko na wala ka na lang."

Hindi pa 'ko tapos magsalita, pinagsisihan ko na ang sinabi kong ito. Ika nga sa paborito kong libro, Nasaktan kita, at nasaktan ko rin ang aking sarili.

Kapag magkasama tayo, atin lang ang mundo. Pero bakit kailangang makasakit ako? Wala naman akong masamang intensyon nung minahal kita. Bakit kailangang maging "hindi tama" yung bagay na sobrang pinapahalagahan ko?

Alam mo, nasasaktan ako kapag may nagsasabi sa aking tigilan na ito dahil "hindi worth it."

"Tingin mo ba better off?"
"Bakit mo 'ko tinatanong ng ganyan? Aalis ka na naman? Bakit parang ang dali-dali sa 'yo iwan ako?"

Minsan tuloy tinatanong ko yung sarili ko, totoo ba ang lahat ng ito?

Ramdam ko namang totoo. Yun nga lang, hindi pa rin ako yung tama, di ba. At ayaw mo naman akong gawing tama para sa 'yo.