"Sobriety is okay enough, but someday, I'd like to live

 

a life based on doing GOOD stuff instead of just 

not doing bad stuff."

 

Choke, Chuck Palahniuk
~courtesy of my lil sis

It was a sacrilege, the neighbors cried,
They way she shattered every mullioned pane
To let a firebrand in. They tried in vain
To understand how one so carved from pride
And glassed in dream could have so flung aside
Her graven days, or why she dared profane
The bread and wine of life for one insane
Moment with him. The scandal never died.

But no one guessed that loveliness would claim
Her soul's cathedral burned by his desires,
Or that he left her aureoled in flame...
And seeing nothing but her blackened spires,
The town condemned this girl who loved too well
And found her heaven in the depths of hell.


Soledad, Angela Manalang-Gloria
6 March 1935

I should be happy now. This is what I wanted, as I said often enough. The right thing. Fate just made it easier for me.

... Now why does it feel so damn hard?

Pahiram ka lang ba talaga sa akin?
Ang bilis naman.

I find this really hilarious... well, not the song itself but the things it reminds me of.


Paano mo malalaman itong pag-ibig ko sa 'yo
Paano mo mararamdamang yan ang tibok ng puso ko
Kung lagi kang kinakabahan na ika'y masasaktan
Pangako ko ang puso mo'y hindi pakakawalan

Paano mo maiintindihan na ako'y nananabik
At kelan ko kaya madarama ang tamis ng iyong halik
Lagi mong inaatrasan ang sugod ng nagmamahal
Sana nama'y pagbigyan mo hiling ng puso ko

Subukan mong magmahal o giliw ko
Kakaibang ligaya ang matatamo
Ang magmahal ng iba'y di ko gagawin
Pagka't ikaw lang tanging sasambahin
'Wag ka nang mangangamba
Pag-ibig ko'y ikaw wala ng iba

You told me to make a wish on the same bright star.

... I still want what's best for you.

- I will cease wearing my hair up, no matter how much you like it.
- I will find every imaginable excuse to avoid being with you, whether alone or in a group. Especially when alone.
- I will stop entertaining your calls before, during and after office hours - except if it's about work, which is unlikely anyway.
- I will ignore your messages.
- I will take it coolly when you start to joke about feeling hurt because I've "changed".
- I will feign innocence when you begin to seriously wonder if anything's wrong.


... But I still might change my mind.


[edit]
By the time I finished writing this entry, I already did.
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Yours.

Thank you. I've never been happier. Thank you.

I love you.

Kung bola ka, at ako ang player, masu-shoot ba kita?
Hindi, kasi lagi kitang mami-miss.

Nasan ka kagabi?
Bakit wala ka sa panaginip ko?

May eraser ka?
Di ka kasi mabura sa isip ko.

Nung mahalin kita daig ko pa ang natrapik sa EDSA
I can't move on!

Para kang Golden Fiesta Cooking Oil
Kasi you're good for my heart.

May kilala ka bang gumagawa ng relo?
May sira yata relo ko eh.
Pag kasama kasi kita, humihinto oras ko.

Sana "T" na lang ako.
Para I'm always right next to "U".

Excuse me, pwede bang magtanong?
Kung didiretsuhin ko ba 'tong daan na 'to...
Diretso ba 'to sa puso mo?

Uy, may free time ka ba?
Samahan mo naman ako sa psychiatrist...
Magdala daw kasi ako ng kinababaliwan ko.

Ilang newtons and vector force mo?
Ang lakas kasi ng hatak mo sa puso ko!
(Physics ito!)

Kung posporo ka at posporo ako...
Match tayo!

Favorite subject mo ba ang trigonometry?
Kahit saang angle kasi tingnan ang cute mo eh.

You can fall from the sky
You can fall from a tree
But the best way to fall is in love with me!

Ang buhay ko ay parang nakasakay sa seesaw
Pag wala ka, down ako.

Pag ako gumawa ng planeta gusto ko ikaw ang axis ko...
Para sa 'yo lang iikot ang mundo ko.

Seswertehin ka sa pag-ibig ngayong taon...
Kung magiging akin ka!

Mag-empake ka...
Punta tayo'ng Home For The Aged
Importante lang, ano kasi...
I wanna grow old with you.


Eto yung part one

Yey. Told ya. I'm a proud and happy... uh, friend. Haha.

Fly me to the moon and let me play among the stars
Let me see what spring is like in Jupiter and Mars
In other words, hold my hand
In other words, darling kiss me
Fill my heart with songs and let me sing forevermore
You are all I longed for, all I worship and adore
In other words, please be true...
In other words, I LOVE YOU.

Ending Theme: Neon Genesis Evangelion

as shared by a friend

Habang naghihintay ng masasakyan, may isang palaboy na lumapit sa amin at tinanong sya, "Syota mo?"

Gusto kong matawa. Siguro nga, sa mundo lang ng mga baliw ito maaaring magkatotoo.

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Kaytagal kong pinagmasdan ang repleksyon ng magkagagap nating mga kamay.

Kung pwede ko lang hingin sa kapalarang lagi tayong ganito.

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Doesn't it make you want to weep when you can't even speak of the pain you have in your heart, no matter how enormous it is, because you don't have the right to feel it?

Who are you to complain, when you walked into it with your eyes open? It was your choice to lose yourself in this emotion, "for one insane moment with him."

No regrets, really. It just hurts so much.

But tomorrow it'll be alright again, isn't it? A look, a smile is all it takes.


"The hardest thing to govern is the heart."
Elizabeth I

Hindi ba nakakairitang makakita ng tapak sa inidoro lalo na kung malinis naman yung loob ng bowl at gumaganang mabuti ang flush system? Hindi mo tuloy magamit nang maayos yung toilet - alangan namang upuan mo ang wari'y putikang trono; alangan ring sundan mo ang ehemplo't tuntungan ito lalo na kung naka-corporate attire ka.

Naiinis lang talaga ako dahil nitong mga nakaraang araw ay madalas kong nakikita ito sa CR namin sa opisina. Hindi naman ganito dati. Ang tanging masasabi ko sa salarin: para kang wala sa siyudad.


**Sobrang babaw na entry. Nakakapikon lang kasi talaga

I will always love the feel of your hands in mine... mine in yours... our fingers twined... almost feeling each other's pulse.

It's as if the world's ours. As if we own time. And nothing else matters.

It's painful enough pushing away someone you desperately want to stay, because it's the "right" thing to do. But what hurts more is when you find yourself still wishing he's there, despite the fact that he can't be with you.


You know that place between sleep and awake, the place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I'll always love you. That's where I'll be waiting. - Tinkerbelle to Peterpan

Wag mong palalampasin ang tagpong ito - malapit na!


girl bata: Mahal pa rin kita. Gusto kitang laging makasama; gusto kitang lagi makausap. Pero maraming humahadlang sa ating dalawa.

boy bata: I NEVER... SAID... THAT I LOVE YOU.


Patalastas:
Magpapainom daw si girl bata kapag lumabas na ito sa takilya. Lahat ay taos-pusong inaanyayahan. Maraming salamat po.

Mou Soukoshi Mou Soukoshi
Ending Theme, Midori No Hibi
Performed by Atsumi Saori

By the time I noticed
I was thinking about you
I thought that was really embarrassing and I really hated it
It's because I'm afraid to convey my feelings

Even if I suppress it in my head
I can't do anything about my heart
To make you not able to notice when we meet
And to make it no different from the norm
Is how I plan to talk to you but I couldn't
I am suffering
I ended up lying to you, but...

Just a bit more, just a bit more
If I can get closer to your heart
Just a bit more, just a bit more
Try not to erase this moment
Please God, give me courage

When I'm alone with my bad crazy thoughts
I worry about what you think of me
I'm sorry I stepped forward to try to let you know
I'm not myself, I don't like the fog around my heart
Depending on someone else makes me run away, but...

Just a bit more, just a bit more
If I can get beside you
Just a bit more, just a bit more
Night does not continue once dawn comes
So wipe away your tears when you're feeling lonely
The glowing moon floats out into the heavens
I'm not stronger or more confident
See me smiling, look, OK?

Just a bit more, just a bit more
If I can get beside you
Just a bit more, just a bit more
Night does not continue once dawn comes
Just a bit more, just a bit more
If I can get closer to your heart
Just a bit more, just a bit more
Try not to erase this moment
Please God, give me courage.

You know my favorite part?
That moment when you'll hold out your hand for me to take. Can't help smiling everytime.


... It's just like a fairy tale.

boy: Tangina mahal kita!
girl: Tangna, di nga?
boy: Pakshet ayaw maniwala!
girl: Gagu, naniniwala na!
boy: Tarantado, yan lang ang sasabihin mo?
girl: Puta! Mahal din kita!

... and they lived happily ever after


(galing sa isang text message)


Uhm, masaya lang ako ngayon kaya tawa lang muna tayo