I was at a friend's wedding. My eyes got misty as the entourage made their way to their respective places, with
Canon in D guiding them along (OK, I temporarily changed my background music so you can hear the exact version used during the march
). When the church doors reopened for the bride, the wedding singer shifted to
From This Moment (Shania Twain's hit), and the tears finally fell.
I thought my friends (those sitting in the same pew) were going to have a heart attack. Suppressed laughter can do that to you. An amused snort is all they can afford to let out, not wanting to disturb the ceremony. I felt somebody elbow me on the behind, hissing, "Huy, ano ka ba?!"
Natats amp...! 
... you take my hand and I understand you are mine, you are mine.
- "Now That I Have You", Erik Santos and Sheryn Regis
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For weeks I agonized whether I actually am going to see you again. At a
wedding, of all places. I wrote in a
previous entry, "I could find him again, or lose him forever."
Days before the actual event, though, I thought: What am I
really holding on to? I've gotten so used to fighting that I seem to have forgotten the reason why. And what am I fighting for anyway? That, too, seems a lifetime away.
You weren't there. I cannot decide whether to feel relieved or troubled. "Hoy, is this a sign?," I asked a friend.
She knew what I was talking about. "I think so."
See? I always thought my great love would end in a wedding. The only difference is, it took me so long to realize it won't be ours.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face
when she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth;
I will never be with you.
- "You're Beautiful", James Blunt
