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August 1st, 2005

habertdey...?

Isang text lang ang hinihintay ko.




... Sana dumating.

posted @ 10:00 AM | 14 splashed

August 3rd, 2005

Leave your old self behind. Reincarnate now.


Hmm... so I have to die first, to be able to "reincarnate"?

That wouldn't be a problem, then. I died for so many times this past month, I lost count already.

It's a good thought, though - reincarnating. I'll hold on to it.

And when I rise again, I hope it'll be totally different.

posted @ 04:04 PM | 10 splashed

August 4th, 2005

pointers

Ano ang dapat gawin kapag:



Simple lang:




*from an email

posted @ 01:24 AM | 8 splashed

poor translation

Narinig ko kanina si Sheryn Regis na kumakanta sa Wowowee:

"Inosente... hinipo sa unang beses... Inoseeeente..."

(Like a virgin, touched for the very first time... like a virgin...)

Pati yung ibang kanta ni Madonna ay isinalin nila sa Filipino, pero itong isang ito talaga ang nakapukaw sa aking atensyon.

Ahaha... hinipo sa unang beses... hahaha... ampangit pakinggan...!

O sadyang berde lang ang utak ko?

posted @ 02:29 PM | 6 splashed

August 8th, 2005

God gave me my birthday gift four days before the actual date.

Maybe that explains why the air had a different feel to it on the day I first met you.

posted @ 02:34 AM | 4 splashed

Mahabang araw. Nakakapagod. Magkatabi tayo't nakikinig sa musika ng mga lokal na banda. Nakatitig ako sa iyong mukha bagama't kung sisilipi'y aakalain mong sa bintana ako nakatingin. Inilapat ko ang aking likod sa sandalan ng upuan; ganun din ang iyong ginawa.

Gustong-gusto ko nang ihilig ang aking ulo sa iyong balikat. Gustong-gusto ko.

Pero hindi tama. Ni pangarapin yun, hindi tama.

Wag kang masyadong mabait sa akin. Kahit alam kong ganun ka lang talaga.


Sandali na lang
Maaari bang pagbigyan
Aalis na nga
Maaari bang hawakan ang iyong mga kamay
Sana ay maabot ng langit ang 'yong mga ngiti
Sana ay masilip


Wag kang mag-alala
Di ko ipipilit sa 'yo
Kahit na lilipad ang isip ko'y torete sa 'yo

Ilang gabi pa nga lang
Nang tayo'y pinagtagpo
Na parang may tumulak
Nanlalamig, nanginginig na ako


Akala ko nung una
May bukas ang ganito
Mabuti pang umiwas
Pero salamat na rin at nagtagpo


Torete, torete, torete ako
Torete, torete, torete sa 'yo

Wag kang mag-alala
Di ko ipipilit sa 'yo
Kahit na lilipad ang isip ko'y torete sa 'yo

Torete, torete, torete ako
Torete, torete, torete ako

Torete, torete, torete ako
Torete, torete, torete sa 'yo
Torete, torete sa 'yo...

posted @ 02:36 AM | 2 splashed

ang alamat ng celpon

Ooh baby, baby, it's a wild world...

Maraming araw na ang nakalilipas ay nagkaroon ng komosyon dito sa aming lugar. Nagulantang na lang kaming lahat nang makarinig ng sigawan, at makitang may naghahabulan sa kalsada.

Syempre ay naki-uzi na rin kami. Andaming tao - tumatakbo, sumisigaw, nanonood. Tapos ay nakita ko ang isang babae, nakasuot ng sleeveless na pantaas, shorts, at tsinelas na goma. Malamang ay sa kalapit na lugar lamang sya nakatira, kung hindi man sa street namin. Tumatakbo rin sya habang sinasambit, "Yung cellphone ko..."

Ah. Isa palang snatcher ang hinahabol nila.

Medyo napailing ako nang mapagtanto yon. Masyado na talagang maraming walanghiya ngayon, na nagpapasasa sa pag-aari ng iba. Pero hindi yun ang punto ko.

Nakakaawa ang mga nananakawan ng cellphone. Yung iba nga, pati buhay ay nadadamay habang inaagaw sa kanila ng kriminal ang nasabing bagay. Napakawalang kwentang dahilan nito para mamatay, pero marami talagang gago sa mundo, na walang pakialam kahit makapanakit, basta may maipantawid lang sa pang-araw-araw na pangangailangan. Pangit. Hindi tama.

Pero kung ikaw ay nasa kalagitnaan ng Morayta (o kahit saan pa yan), at medyo gabi na, wag mo namang ibuyangyang ang cellphone mo para makita ng lahat ng taong madaraanan mo. Talagang makakapag-imbita ka ng magnanakaw nyan. Hindi ba maaaring hintayin mo na lamang na nasa kaligtasan ka ng sarili mong tahanan bago ka mag-text? Kung kinakailangan talaga ng kausap mo ang madaliang reply o tawag, siguraduhing hindi ka nakabilad sa masasamang elemento. Kung may makikita ka pang bukas na tindahan, pumasok ka at sa loob gamitin ang iyong telepono. Kung wala na talagang ligtas na lugar, maging alerto ka na lang.

Hindi ko sinasabing tama lang na manakawan ng telepono ang isang taong gumagamit nito sa mga pampublikong lugar. Pero uulitin ko: maraming gago sa mundo. Kaya mag-ingat lagi.


P.S.
Sana hindi ako mawalan ng telepono... hehehe...

posted @ 07:48 PM | 7 splashed

August 9th, 2005

bob's your uncle

from The Oddball Wall

The British certainly have a way with words and some very colorful slang. Your mission today is to guess the meaning of the following British slang terms, and don't throw a wobbler about it.

1) Barmy means...
a. crazy b. too warm c. foolish

2) Blinkered means...
a. drunk b. asleep c. narrow minded

3) Codswallop means...
a. talking baloney b. smelled badly c. the cold shoulder

4) Hard lines means...
a. nice body b. bad luck c. delays

5) Horses for courses means...
a. call a cab b. unfit food c. each to his own

6) Scrummy means...
a. lousy b. particularly nice c. ready to fight

7) Spend a penny means...
a. go to the bathroom b. a cheap date c. broke and jobless

8) Squidgey means...
a. fishy b. sloppy c. soft and squishy

9) Tickety-boo means...
a. all messed up b. it's going well c. under arrest

Answers below, here's the scoring:

9 correct: How's living in England been for you?
5-8 correct: How was your vacation to England?
1-4 correct: Don't you wish you could go to England?
0 correct: England is also known as the United Kingdom, the UK, Britain, Great Britain, and the United Kingdom of Great Britain and Ireland. And you thought you were confused taking the quiz.

1 - a. crazy
2 - c. narrow minded
3 - a. talking baloney
4 - b. bad luck
5 - c. each to his own
6 - b. particularly nice
7 - a. go to the bathroom
8 - c. soft and squishy
9 - b. it's going well

PS - The title of this quiz, Bob's Your Uncle, is British slang meaning "and that's it" or "the end." Bob's your uncle.

posted @ 05:22 PM | 3 splashed

tancho mucho gwapito

How can you have turn-ins when you only have 9 calls??!!


I just got off the phone with my former "team leader cum co-team leader" (wehehe) Froilan. Insekto talaga yun - walang nagbago, hanggang ngayon ginagabi pa rin sa opis. Malamang tinititigan na naman nya yung turn-ins ng team nya... pati ata tuldok sa application form iniinspeksyon nyan eh!

Marami-rami rin kaming pinagsamahan ng lalaking yan. Nagsimula yun nung training pa lamang namin sa Makati Office at itinulak ba naman nya pataas yung pinto ng pantry na sa realidad ay sliding door pala! Ang komento pa nga nya nun, "Uy, ang galing ah, parang space ship!" (Ahaha... gago!)

Nasundan pa yun nang abutin kami ng alas nwebe y medya ng gabi habang pinagtutulungang buuin ang schedules ng shifts ng lahat ng agents. Nakakaawa kasi eh... parang puputok na yung ulo sa kaiisip kung paano ia-allocate yung total agents (ng buong agency) sa seven working days... eh di tinulungan ko

Hindi nya ako pinabayaang mabulok sa opis nung nasa booth operations sila at ako naman ang backroom support ng Team 02. Lagi nya akong dinadalaw kaya naman kalahati ng baon kong pagkain ang napupunta sa kanya (peste! ). Lagi rin nyang pinapaalala sa ibang team members ang kahalagahan ng gawain ko kahit hindi nila ako kasama sa field - ako kasi ang bahalang mag-follow-up sa lahat ng kliyente nila - kaya naman kahit pano'y naramdaman kong may pinatutunguhan ang pinagpapaguran ko araw-araw.

Nung itinigil na ng bangko ang direct sales, at lahat kami'y inilagay na sa opisina para mag-tele, palagi nya akong kinokonsulta sa pag-check ng mga turn-ins ng team. Pati files ng team, inaayos ko. Kumbaga, naging "assistant team leader" ako noon. Dahil dito, pati yung dalawa pang team leaders at ang kapwa agents ko, humihingi rin ng opinyon tungkol sa output nila. Naging visible akong lalo sa kumpanya. Eventually, na-promote ako.

Hindi ko makakalimutan ang araw na yun. Nakakarinig na ako ng bali-balita, ngunit ayaw kong maniwala pagkat ayokong umasa sa isang bagay na baka hindi naman pala totoo. Pero pinatawag ako ng aming channel manager at poof! Team leader na rin ako.

Sya ang unang-unang tumawag sa linya ko matapos ang appointment ko bilang TL ng Team 05. Nakakaiyak nga yung sandaling yun pano rinig na rinig ko sa boses nya na proud sya at masayang-masaya para sa akin.

Hindi pa rin sya tumigil sa pagsuporta sa akin kahit na may sarili na akong team. Hindi sya nakikialam sa mga desisyon ko, pero lagi syang andyan para magbigay ng payo lalo na nung mga panahong pinanghihinaan ako ng loob. Lagi rin kaming nagpupulong nyan kung anu-ano pa ang dapat gawin para lalong mapabuti ang performance ng teams namin. Hindi lang ang team nya ang pinoprotektahan nya, kasama na ron ang team ko, at ang teams ng aking co-agents (under his supervision) na kalauna'y nagkaron rin ng kanya-kanyang posisyon. Sya ang lunch date ko at kasama pauwi. Sya rin ang takbuhan ko kapag wala na akong bondpaper or liquid eraser (hmpft... mas marami pa rin syang utang na papel sa 'kin..!).

Pero wag nyong isiping napakaperpekto ng aming samahan. Nag-aaway rin kami nyan... pano, pareho kaming pasaway. May mga pagkakataong hindi kami magkaintindihan sa ilang bagay, at naiirita ako kasi ayoko ng paulit-ulit pang pagpapaliwanag. Minsan naman ay nakakapagbitiw sya ng masasakit na salita kahit wala sa loob nya - nagso-sorry naman sya, pero yun ay pagkatapos kong mag-walk out.

Hindi ako kayang tiisin nyan eh... hehe Kahit mega-away kami nyan, maya-maya, parang walang nangyari. Ganun din naman ako sa kanya. Pag nag-sorry sya, hinahampas ko na lang sya na may kasamang tawa at mura.

Nung umalis ako sa kumpanya kasama ang iba ko pang kapwa team leaders (na once upon a time ay naging agents din nya), alam kong nasaktan sya. Alam kong gusto nya kaming manatili roon pero alam din nyang wala ring buting maidudulot kung pipilitin nya kaming mag-stay.

Nakaka-miss ang dati naming samahan. Pero hindi ko pinagsisisihang nagkahiwalay ang aming mga landas. Kung meron man akong pinagsisisihan, yun ay hindi ko naipamana sa kanya yung mga gamit ko... bigla na lang kasing naglaho. Anyway, magkaibigan pa rin naman kami.

Tangina mo Froi... MUWAAHH!!! Labyu... TSUP!!!


posted @ 09:07 PM | take a plunge.

August 10th, 2005

i chose three

... and it all apply.

You are dependable, popular, and observant. Deep and thoughtful, you are prone to moodiness. In fact, your emotions tend to influence everything you do. You are unique, creative, and expressive. You don't mind waving your freak flag every once and a while. And lucky for you, most people find your weird ways charming!


You are pure, moral, and adaptable. You tend to blend into your surroundings. Shy on the outside, you're outspoken to your friends. You believe that you live a virtuous life... and you tend to judge others with a harsh eye. As a result, people tend to crave your approval.


You are dreamy, peaceful, and young at heart. Optimistic and caring, you tend to see the best in people. You tend to be always smiling - and making others smile. You are shy and intelligent... and a very hard worker. You're also funny, but many people don't see your funny side. Your subtle dry humor leaves your close friends in stitches.


The World's Shortest Personality Test

posted @ 04:46 PM | 4 splashed

eternal doormat

Sabi ng isang kaibigan, "People are naturally sweet. It's just those around you who drives you not to be."

May mga taong handa laging magbigay ng tulong, handang mag-abala para sa kapakanan ng iba, at hindi makatanggi kapag hiningan ng pabor.

Meron ring mga taong abusado. Yun bang minsang humingi ng tulong, at sinuportahan mo naman, at magmula noo'y hindi na tumigil sa pagkuha sa 'yo ng pabor. At ang masama pa noon, naaalala ka lang kapag may kailangan sa iyo.

Sasabihin ng iba, kasalanan naman ito nung tumutulong kung naaabuso man sya, kasi'y "People will only treat you the way you allow them to." Dapat, hindi na nya hinayaang umabot sa sukdulan ang sitwasyon.

Ngunit sa kabilang banda, kailangan rin naman ang respeto. Minsan kasi, nandun pa rin ang pananalig na alam ng mga tao ang ibig sabihin ng salitang limitasyon - kung kelan "pwede pa" at kung kelan "tama na". Hindi mo na ito kailangang sabihin sa kanila pagkat sila mismo ang nagtatakda nito sa kanilang mga sarili.

Pero pano kung hindi sila marunong makiramdam?

Subukan mong sabihin sa kanila ang nasasaloob mo. Humindi ka.

Pero ikaw pa ang lalabas na masama.

Natawa nga ako sa komento ng isa pang kaibigan. Mas mabuti pa raw na bitchy ang pagkakakilala sa iyo; at least, kung may magawa ka mang mabuti para sa iba, redemption mo na rin yun. Samantalang kung ikaw ay "mabait", meron ka lang nagawa na tingin nila'y hindi sang-ayon sa imahe mong sila rin naman ang may gawa, parang napakasama mo na.

Sa mundong ito, gamitan lang ba talaga?

posted @ 08:42 PM | 6 splashed

August 11th, 2005

dead stars

One always has to know when a stage comes to an end.

I dreaded that this might happen. That's why I don't even want to try moving on; I was afraid this might fade.

I thought, if I held on long enough, firmly enough, we'd still be around for that shining moment of being reunited.

I thought I could love you from a distance, and safely come back in your arms when the time is right. But now, I feel no desire of returning, though I once vowed that wherever you are is home for me.

Our memories will be remembered, though - not anymore with bitterness and regretful longing, but with fondness in knowing that it was you who made me feel for the first time, not only how to love, but how it is to be loved.

My undying thanks.

Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away.


*quotes from Paulo Coelho's Closing A Cycle
*title from one of my favorite literary pieces, Dead Stars by Paz Marquez Benitez

posted @ 03:15 PM | 4 splashed

August 12th, 2005

trip

*from an email

Hindi ko kilala ang mga ito, ni hindi ko alam kung Filipino sila, pero sana hindi nila masamain kung makita nila ang mga fichoor nila sa blog ko... aliw eh...



Kayo, meron din ba kayong natatagong kapangyarihan?

posted @ 12:31 AM | 17 splashed

August 14th, 2005

today's motto: "keep off the grass!"

"Ingat."

Oh, please God, his voice did not have a note of tenderness in it...!

But it did. And with his soft smiling eyes he looked at me.


posted @ 12:05 AM | 4 splashed

showbiz chismis

Uy mga fans, alam nyo bang si Jose Rizal at si Mariang Makiling ay... magsyota?!

posted @ 01:29 AM | 10 splashed

August 15th, 2005

buena mano

Take me as you are
Push me off the road
The sadness
I need this time to be with you
I'm freezing in the sun
I'm burning in the rain
The silence
I'm screaming, calling out your name
And I do reside in your light
Put out the fire with me and find
Yeah you'll lose the side of your circles
That's what I'll do if we say goodbye.


Not a brand new tune, but when you're in for a drive at four in the morning, the wind plays with your hair from the car's open window, and the man of your dreams is sitting beside you, singing it with all his might - it sure feels like you're hearing it all for the first time...

If you could only know me like your prayers at night
Then everything between you and me will be alright.

posted @ 01:27 PM | take a plunge.

August 16th, 2005

Spontaneous, Ideas, Hearts and Extrovert


Summary of Innovators
- Energetic and creative taking inspiration from everyone they meet
- Enjoy flexible work environments with few rules and many opportunities for fun
- Think of themselves as imaginative, sociable and sympathetic
- May not think logically about their ideas

More about Innovators
Innovators are fun-loving, creative, sensitive people who enjoy developing their ideas by discussing them with others. This group supports the people around them and expects the same in return. Others are drawn to Innovators because of their love of life, caring nature and openness.

Innovators are most likely to say they do their best work when they start at the last minute, according to a UK survey.



Innovators are good at spotting opportunities and recognizing potential in people. Innovators put all their energy into new projects and their enthusiasm motivates others to support their plans.

In situations where they can’t use their talents or are unappreciated, Innovators may become rebellious and unfocused. Under extreme stress, Innovators may become preoccupied with meaningless details

Innovators may over-extend themselves or put a night out with friends ahead of more pressing commitments.

Innovator Careers
Innovators are drawn to careers that require teaching or counselling, where they can work with and help encourage the development of others.

Take the test!

posted @ 02:18 PM | take a plunge.

sino'ng gutom?




WHERE'S THE BEEF?

It's at a Pennsylvania pub that serves the world's biggest burger - weighing in at NINE lip-smacking pounds! That's no whopper - you can actually get this meat monster for $23.95, loaded with all the "fixings"...

Two whole tomatoes
A half-head of lettuce
12 slices of American cheese
A full cup of peppers
Two entire onions
Plus, a river of mayonnaise, ketchup, and mustard.

Denny's Beer Barrel Pub is renown for its 6 lb. burgers. National and local newspapers have reviewed the burger and its main appeal seems to be...

NO ONE HAS FINISHED IT!!!

---

Futiks. Yung Quarter Pounder nga ng McDo eh nat*e ako pagkatapos... eto pa kaya??? Shyet.

*from Kaith's email eons ago. Akalain mo sister, ngayon ko lang nabasa 'to? Ganun ako kadalas mag-check ng email

posted @ 03:48 PM | 3 splashed

August 17th, 2005

of friends

One of Tabulas' sassy girls is celebrating her birthday today... three MWAHs for Teacher Edi!!!

I hope you find your very own Gyeun-woo... or have you?

"pagsamahin natin mga kakiligan natin to build a world full of kilig"

ENJOY YOUR DAY, SIS... TSUP!

---

I thank God for friends who, although not aware of the nitty-gritty details of my everyday life, understand all the same, without the need for me to explain myself.

I can't help remembering Mei and the conversation we had on my birthday. It touched me that she still knows my very core like the back of her hand even after all these years of being apart.

Well, she has the advantage of knowing yours truly before I even started sailing in this wild, wild world. Having that knowledge enabled her to digest the ambitions, dreams, frustrations and regrets that envelope my heart today without making harsh judgments. She didn't equate my coldness and indifference to mere cruelty.

Mei, yung Contractubex pala PhP650... ang mahal! Hanggang Cebo de Macho lang ang kaya ko...

---

Zar gave me a copy of The Courier*, the official student newsletter of UST College of Education. Contained there is her first and last editorial entitled "Not an Easy Path", from which she shared the struggles she had to face before finally having the coveted diploma. The article simply moved me to tears, especially because I personally witnessed some of the challenges she spoke of. I am proud that she was able to make it, proving what a strong and extraordinary girl she is.

I originally intended having the article here kaya lang sobrang haba nun, naiwala na nung author yung soft copy, at nakakatamad mag-type; instead I will state the part which made the most impact: "I entered this institution bringing nothing but I will leave with a unique experience incorporated with Thomasian values that would surely be my strongest weapon in my next battle."

Vaklaa... fwede ka nang magpa-transplant..!

*vol. 5 no. 2, November 2004 - May 2005

---

We (Zar and I) spent the other day with Tupe, our "long-lost" barkada from UST Admissions Office. I don't even remember the exact date I last saw this guy. Although we talk in the phone often, I am sure that you'll understand me, dear reader, when I say that the news gets juicier and more exciting to divulge when you're face-to-face with the person you wanna tell it to.

It was a happy reunion: asaran to the max. We didn't have much time for chit-chat, though; after grocery-shopping for my mom, we watched D'Anothers - something we looked forward to for the longest time at ngayon lang rin natupad. Nakakabitin tuloy kasi hindi kami masyadong nakapag-chismisan. Nakakaiyak pa pano he kept saying that he really missed us. Well, amidst the teasing, I have reasons to believe that, because:

1. We had plans of going out on Zar's birthday - June 6 - hindi natuloy.
2. We had plans of going out on my birthday - August 1 - hindi natuloy.
3. We have plans of going out on his birthday - September 4 - ewan ko na lang kapag hindi pa natuloy.

And in fairness, we missed him too.

This friend of mine is now facing what he thinks is the biggest challenge of his life. It is a heavy decision, but I have faith that he will be able to pass through this turning-point gracefully. Well, with friends like us, who wouldn't...?

Vaklaa... ang kafal ng foundation mo ngayun..!

---

Pag may dilim, may liwanag
Pag may problema, may ginhawa
Pag buo ang pamilya
Pag buo ang pamilya
Aapaw ang saya
Pag magkasama...*


For some unfathomable reason, this song played in my head while eating at Mang Jimmy's, a fairly-sized eatery at UP Diliman, with my comrades from Travel Earth Tours and Adventures. We just finished a trip with a school in Antipolo City, and we ended the day by having dinner there.

I have been with the company for roughly three weeks, and the actual time I spent with these people is even less than that (we only convene during tours, which are scheduled on weekends), but they surely made me feel more than welcome. Aside from being so accommodating, in such a short time I have learned quite a lot about the travel industry through their expertise. That is why I want them to have all the help I can give. I know in my heart that they are my family now.

And, oh, they're the ones who influenced me into using this term: Vaklaa...!!!

*Coke's new jingle

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"What is a friend? A single soul dwelling in two bodies." - Aristotle

posted @ 01:26 AM | 4 splashed

August 18th, 2005

marcos gems = elixir of the philippine economy?

Another piece of news made me arch my eyebrows. The government wants to auction the Marcos jewels. Whatever proceeds these baubles may fetch will be used to finance certain government projects, especially those related to the agrarian reform.

This announcement isn't new to the Filipino ears, for it has been publicized a number of times. But I don't think there'd been any biddings that actually took place. I read that the bureau in charge of the auction will first need a court order before they can lay hands on the expensive accessories - you see, there are complaints that these pieces were acquired by using funds from the national treasury, therefore they are not private property, and may be used by the Philippine government to enhance the lot of its people. But the Steel Butterfly won't let go that easily, of course. That's why until now the liquidation of these articles remains in question.

Well, there are many spectacular pieces to choose from, and one government official commented that even a small-sized pebble from this collection can help build houses for hundreds of poor families.

One look is all it takes to know without doubt that these things are highly expensive. One appraiser even claimed that because of the rarity of the stones embedded in these pieces, they cannot decide right away on their monetary value; further research is needed in order to arrive at the most accurate figures.

And oh, did I mention that the Marcoses may participate in the auction? They can bid as high as they want, if they wish to recover the items.

*So what if the stuff were really purchased with their own money, but were decided by our courts, for some reason, to be otherwise? Does that mean that they still have to pay for what's rightfully theirs?*

And what of the much talked about Marcos loot and all those bank accounts at foreign lands? After all these years what have we accomplished to prove such corruption during the Marcos rule? How much evidence have we gathered during the term of four presidents - Aquino, Ramos, Estrada, and now Arroyo - who ruled after Marcos was ousted? Surely if Marcos committed such crime - a betrayal of public trust, a selfish exploitation of the republic's funds - then any president who took over, especially those previously in opposition, would not think twice of closing the case as swiftly and satisfactorily as possible. Destroy the criminals, and make them pay! Only when we have a solid conclusion can we be able to truly move on and forget the remnants of the past.

A comment from a televised interview painted a grin in my face - it appears that some people are really anticipating the disposal of these articles! Or more precisely, the amount to be derived from the sale. Forgive me for forgetting who the lady was, but she said, "Surely, if they knew we needed the money..." then the bidders will pay highly. God, are we that desperate..? Then what happened to the revenues garnered from the numerous taxes we are obliged to pay for?

I have no objections about the sale of these items, provided that our government can satisfactorily prove to the people that these are indeed purchased using illegal means, and the proceeds - every penny - are actually used for its original and only purpose: government projects. It will be totally sad if we go through all these trouble, debating endlessly, and the money, instead of being used to help our less fortunate fellowmen, will just go to some unscrupulous individual's pocket.

posted @ 01:30 AM in | take a plunge.

August 19th, 2005

crossroads

While contemplating on possible career moves last night, I had a sudden thought:

We can dream as much as we want, but still we can't have everything, so we must choose wisely what dreams to pursue.


I don't know how right or wrong I am in thinking that, but I guess this applies to someone who wants to experience too many things, thus having a hard time deciding what particular path to concentrate on.

I've made up my mind that in 2007, yours truly should be enrolled in law school. I want to work for the prosecutor's office, specializing in criminal cases (yeah, I know I've got weird tastes... ).

It's easy enough to visualize that far into the future. But what of the meantime? Two years is quite a long wait, and although I enjoy my tour-guiding job very much, I still want to keep a Monday to Friday, 8 to 5 employment. I need the financial support it will give to my endeavor, and of course I welcome whatever skills and experiences that go with it. Anyway it won't be too much of a hassle because my tour-guiding is usually scheduled during weekends. I must not spend the whole week sitting around, writing in my Tabulas

There are many opportunities in the job market, true, but the question lies in picking the best choice.

Let's start by submitting my resumé to those companies, shall we?

Wish me luck in my journey.

posted @ 02:30 PM | 12 splashed

August 21st, 2005

life's hilarious absurdities

As I mature...

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in.

I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people are just assholes.

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it.

I've learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes. After that, you'd better have a big willy or huge boobs.

I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to others - they are more screwed up than you think.

I've learned that you can keep vomiting long after you think you're finished.

I've learned that we are responsible for what we do - unless we are celebrities.

I've learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades, and there had better a lot of money to take its place!

I've learned that 99% of the time when something isn't working in your house, one of your kids did it.

I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon and all the less important ones just never go away.

Pass this along to five friends... trust me, they'll appreciate it. Who knows, maybe something good will happen.

If not... *tough shit*


*from an email

posted @ 01:55 AM | 8 splashed

cadaver exhibit opens in defiance of ban



A controversial exhibition of skinned human cadavers opened on Thursday at a Florida museum in defiance of a state agency's vote to ban the display. The exhibition at Tampa's Museum of Science and Industry, known as MOSI, features 20 human bodies and 260 human organs. It had originally been scheduled to open on Saturday. On Wednesday, the Florida Anatomical Board, which regulates the distribution of cadavers for research and education, voted 4-2 in Gainesville to deny approval for the exhibit.

PHOTO: A visitor looks at a human body structure during a body exhibition on April 21, 2004, in Taipei. The controversial exhibition entitled 'Body Worlds, The Anatomical Exhibition Of Real Human Bodies' features real specimens of human bodies and animals preserved by a technique called plastination, developed by German scientist Gunther Von Hagens. REUTERS/Richard Chung

Click here for the complete report

*from Yahoo! News

posted @ 08:13 PM | 2 splashed

August 22nd, 2005

a day in the life of a tour guide

This is last Saturday's adventure. *Sayang, di ako makapag-transfer ng pics sa computer.*

Before. I spent the night at our office in Quezon City - my Travel Earth comrades are my "house mates" every Friday, before a scheduled tour. I was not able to watch Attic Cat with them; I wanted to examine Zar's brochures about Manila. Zar and I went up early - ten o'clock, maybe? - but instead of reading about tomorrow's destinations we ended up updating each other on happenings since we convened last. The news were not as fresh, but SMS is just too narrow for juicy details Frank, our boss, also dropped by for a short talk.

It's lights-out by eleven, but we can't sleep. We're not in the mood to study, either, so we talked some more. I have no idea exactly what time I drifted to sleep - it must've been after midnight. I set an earlier alarm so that we can review before packing up. I woke up at 1:30 in the morning - the alarm was supposed to rouse us thirty minutes later, but the smell of breakfast Ate Mila was preparing downstairs can penetrate even the most beautiful of dreams. Freshly cooked rice, plus hotdogs, eggs and corned beef... whoa, it's just too hard to resist!

I took a bath while Zar still lounged on the bed. After stuffing my things in my backpack, I started to read, but gave up pretty easily. I watched the moon instead; I was mesmerized. By 4:00am (or 4:30?) we picked up the packed meals for the other guides and headed to the door. There was a taxi parked near the office, and we could've boarded it, but the driver was quite argumentative - drunk? - and we couldn't find another taxi in the area so we walked all the way to the main road and rode a jeep towards Muñoz, where our pick-up buses, and some guides, were waiting. The coordinators and the guides went on separate ways - we're touring three schools for the day, 44 buses in all.

During. This is my third tour, but it's the first time that I would actually handle a bus on my own. I was assigned to Bus 7 of Comembo Elementary School, a public school in Makati. Our itinerary for the day are the following:

1. DOST (Bicutan, Taguig) - Philippine Science Heritage Center; Technology Applications and Promotions Institute
2. Philippine Air Force Museum (Pasay)
3. Nayong Pilipino (Parañaque)
4. Meralco Museum and Archives (Ortigas, Pasig)
5. Intramuros / WOW Philippines (Manila)

I handled grade three pupils. I thought it'd be easy enough. I was wrong.

My talk needn't be too informative, yes, but I must think of ways to entertain them. That's what I am here for, right? But these are hyper-active kids. And what do third graders of this generation like to hear, anyways?

I delivered corny jokes: Kunwari nananaginip ka. Nananaginip kang may humahabol sa 'yo. Syempre ayaw mo yun, di ba. Takot na takot ka na. Maaabutan ka na nya! Ano ang gagawin mo para di ka maabutan ng humahabol sa 'yo? *Isip naman sila* Eh di gumising ka! Bwahaha!

We played guessing games: Anong apelyido ang merong walong letter A? *Isip uli sila* Eh di OCHO-A!!! Bwahaha!

Magbigay nga kayo ng pangalan ng isda na dalawang beses inuulit yung pantig? *Taas sila ng kamay, nagbigay ng sagot tulad ng sapsap, lapulapu, mayamaya, etc.* Eh yung tatlong beses inuulit, meron ba kayong alam? *Isip uli sila* Sirit na? Eh di 555!!! Bwahaha!

And I sang. Yes, I did. Would you believe that??? I couldn't believe it myself... I almost told them that I only look like Sarah Geronimo, but we don't share the same golden voice.. hehe Alam nyo ba yung "Tong-tong-tong Pakitong-kitong"? *Opo!* Opo? O sige, kakantahin natin yun ngayon. Pero gagawin nating kakaiba. Alam nyo yung A, E, I, O, U di ba? *Opo!* OK!!! So pag kinanta natin yun, gagamitan natin ng A, E, I, O, U!!!! Ready na ba??? *Ready na po!!!* One, two, three...!

Tang-tang-tang-tang pakatang-katang
Alamanga sa dagat
Malaka at masarap
Maharap mahala
Sapagkat nangangagat...!

O, E naman! Pero lakasan nyo ha! Para namang kulang kayo sa Sangkap Pinoy nyan eh! OK, let's sing...!


We sang until we finished the vowels. I talked nonstop from Makati to Taguig. No wonder I was exhausted by the time we reached DOST.

One good thing, though: When I'm with the children I watch my language (of course!). Surprisingly, it's easy enough to do - although if you know me personally I am sure you'd find that hard to believe... hehe

The Air Force Museum was interesting; I also liked the Meralco Museum. It's my first time to see these places. Actually, the whole itinerary is new to me, with the exception of DOST and Nayong Pilipino, which was part of the package during my first two tours.

We ate lunch at Nayong Pilipino. I was worried - a student approached me and told me she couldn't find her younger sister, who's also included in my head count before we left the school. We checked the bus - nada. We roamed the whole park, only to find the missing girl back in the vehicle (well, thank God for that!).

Eman saw me walking hand-in-hand with the little girl. He laughed and teased me, "Tour guide na tour guide ah...!"

There's nothing like the feel of a small hand in yours - a gesture of respect and full trust.

At Intramuros, I let them roam instead of touring them in a single group. They wanted to do completely different things - some wanted to shop for souvenirs, some wanted to take a ride in the calesa, some just wanted to run around. Instead of tiring them walking around the park (which was what I originally intended to do, because I wanted to show them the landmarks there), I set up a meeting place where we'd assemble thirty minutes later.

Another student approached me to find a sibling. This time it's the child I accompanied in Nayong Pilipino who was missing! When we finally found her, I told the sisters: "Wag na nga kayong maghiwalay! PAKPAKPAK!!!" We laughed and took pictures instead.

The children wanted to go to Luneta before finally going home, but the teachers decided to go home early. It's not advisable anyway, because Bro. Mike Velarde will celebrate his birthday at the Quirino Grandstand and thousands of El Shaddai members flocked the park.

It was a tiring day, but I was happy because when I dropped them off at their school, I heard some of them singing our version of "Tong-tong-tong...", and some are repeating my delivery of "Saaam..." (a relaxing "exercise" that I taught them on the way home... I first heard this one from Jonathan )

*God, I love this job.*

After. We left Makati at 8pm. It was early and I think Frank had plans of eating out, but Zar and I had an appointment with some friends and it's still a long way from there to our friend's place - Angono, Rizal... haha!

I finally got home at the first hour of August 21... so I was away from home for almost two days. I still managed to visit my Tabulas and reply to comments left by visitors. I was too tired to compose anything, though.

Well, I must say that tour-guiding satisfies my thirst for history and travel. And the nice part is, I am given the chance to share what I know with the next generation.

posted @ 12:38 AM | 1 splashed

August 24th, 2005

FY

Nanlalaking mga mata, tinging malagkit at bibig na kulang na lang ay tuluyang daluyan ng laway.

Nakakapagtakang ang isang babaeng hindi kagandahan at may kayumangging kaligatan na kumpleksyon ay makapag-udyok ng ganitong damdamin sa isang lalaking hindi naman nya kilala. Simple lang naman ang suot nyang shirt at pantalon, walang burloloy maliban sa hikaw at relo, at lalong walang make-up. Hindi rin sya nakikipag-usap sa mga taong walang dahilan para kausapin nya o para kausapin sya - mga taong nakakasabay sa pampublikong sasakyan o yung mga nalalampasan habang daan.

At matitiis pa sana nya kung kabilugan lamang ng buwan ito nangyayari... pero kung paulit-ulit na nagaganap ang eksaktong tanawing yon, at wala man lamang pagitan ang mga araw na pinangyarihan, masisisi mo ba sya kung sya'y tuluyang mainis? Napapaisip tuloy sya kung meron ba syang nagawang mali't ganito ang pakitungo sa kanya ng mga lalaking ito. Siguro, sadyang dumarami lang ang gago sa mundo...?

Ito nga pala ang mensahe nya sa mga nasabing estranghero:

1. Wala kayong pakialam kung ano ang pangalan ko, "kahit first name lang."
2. Wala kayong pakialam kung ilang taon na ako, saan ako nakatira, saan nagtatrabaho at kung anuman ang katungkulan ko saan mang kumpanya.
3. Wala kayong pakialam kung may boyfriend na ako, dahil mismong ako hindi na yun pinapakialaman.
4. Hindi ako interesado sa inyo, o kung kanino man ninyo ako gustong ireto.
5. Wala kayong pakialam kung Smart, Talk & Text, Globe, TM o Sun Cellular ang network ko. At may magagawa ka ba kung sabihin kong Mobiline o Islacom ako?
6. Walang dahilan para ibigay mo sa akin ang pangalan at cellphone number mo; hindi ko naman tinatanong.
7. Hindi ka gwapo, kaya wag umastang pogi. O kung nakasisilaw man ang kagwapuhan mo, wala pa rin akong pakialam.
8. Alam mo ba ang ibig sabihin kapag sinimangutan ka ng isang tao?
9. Wag mong asahang magkikita pa tayong muli. Wala naman akong ginawa para naisin mo yun.
10. Kapag sinabi kong gusto ko nang bumaba, kahit hindi naman yun ang orihinal kong bababaan, wala kang pakialam. Sa iyo na ang sobra sa ibinayad ko.

Doon naman sa mga hindi-masyadong-estranghero pero ganun rin ang ginagawa:

1. Magsyota lang ang nagho-holding hands ng interlocked ang mga daliri.
2. Kapag humalukipkip ako o tahasang pinagpag ang kamay mo, makaramdam ka naman!
3. Ayokong magmura kaya wag mo akong pilitin.
4. Alamin mo ang ibig sabihin ng salitang "respeto."
5. Hindi tayo mga estranghero, pero lalong hindi tayo close. Wag magpanggap.
6. Lahat ay may pagkakataong maging malapit sa akin; bukas ako sa pakikipagkaibigan. Pero sinira mo na yung tsansa mo.
7. Layuan mo ako.
8. PAK!
9. PAK!
10. PAK!

At katangahan man pero bagaman gusto na nyang magsalita, pinipili pa rin nyang manahimik. Mas iniisip pa rin nya kung makakasakit sya ng damdamin pag nagsalita sya, kahit sya'y buwisit na buwisit na.

Pero hanggang dito na lang ang pagtitiis. Sa susunod, hindi na. Kaya umayos ka.

posted @ 05:41 PM | take a plunge.

the world through his eyes

Aidan O'Rourke, a traveler-writer, keeps this very impressive collection of photos and articles about almost anywhere in the world. I enjoyed browsing around, and of course, where else should I look first but at our very own country, the Philippines?

http://www.aidan.co.uk

posted @ 06:30 PM | take a plunge.

August 25th, 2005

(living with the) attic cat

A funny thing about boys: You need them and they are nowhere to be found; if you do find them they only have their eyes for someone else.

You move on and they all come back running. Pestering you, doing tricks to catch your attention again.

"Manahimik ka nga dyan... sa susunod na tawagin mo 'ko, papatayin kita...!"

posted @ 05:52 PM | 6 splashed

sperm donor reality show?

AMSTERDAM (Reuters) - Billionaire television producer John de Mol, behind the pioneer show Big Brother, will test the limits of reality TV with a program in which a woman searches for a potential sperm donor to conceive a child.

(Read More)

posted @ 06:23 PM in | 4 splashed

August 26th, 2005

blue handkerchief

I stumbled in his life. Literally.

It was a wet July afternoon. I just lost the love of my life, the company I worked for suddenly closed down, and to top it all, it's raining hard and I conveniently forgot my umbrella. All of these had to happen in a single day. Unbelievable.

Deep in thought, I climbed down the stairs towards the MRT Station in Ayala. Two steps to go, and before I could even grasp the railing, I stubbed my toe in one of the steel things attached to each concrete step. "Oh, hell, it just gets worse and worse," I thought as I fought for control.

Just then, out of nowhere, a pair of strong arms enveloped me.

"Whoa!," he exclaimed.

My confused gaze finally focused, and I basked in his steady stare. My heart turned over. I will never forget those soft, smiling eyes. I looked down, suddenly shy.

We both straightened up. I smoothed my blouse and skirt.

"I'm sorry..."
"Be careful..."

We smiled at each other.

"Hey," I began. "Thanks. I hate to imagine what state I'd be in if you weren't there to catch me."

He laughed. "Well, you'd better be careful next time."

"I'll do that. Thanks again."

"Take care."

He started to walk away, and I took a tentative step. "Oh!"

He turned. "Is something wrong?"

"Well, we've got a bigger problem here than I thought. I twisted my left ankle."

A look of concern crossed his face, but he immediately replaced it with a smile. "Are you going to commute?"

"Yes. I am going by train and then I'll have a long jeepney ride. Two short ones if I can't find a derecho route."

"Maybe we could go home together. Where do you live?"

"Fairview."

"I live in Las Piñas. We're headed towards the opposite ends of the pole," he said, chuckling. "But first, let's do something about that sprain. Is it painful?"

"Quite."

"Can you walk okay?"

"I'll try."

"Don't worry, we'll just need to go that far." He pointed at the nearest bench. "Then we can look on your foot."

"Okay."

He gently guided me towards the seat. I sat down. As I arranged my things beside me, he knelt. "May I?"

"Uh... I guess."

He removed my shoe and examined my afflicted foot. I swallowed, suddenly feeling nervous.

"Hmm. I'll move it this way and that way, and tell me if you're in pain," he instructed.

I nodded.

He cradled my foot in his hands, and gently tilted it to the right. He looked at me inquiringly, silently asking if it hurts. I shook my head. He continued what he was doing, this time more firmly. I gasped.

"It hurts?" he asked.

"Yes. But I'll chance it. I think we're getting there."

"You're sure?"

"Go ahead," I consented, biting my lip. I muttered a short prayer in my mind, and braced myself for the pain.

He inclined my foot as gently as he could, yet keeping a firm hold onto it. Finally we heard a soft sound, that of a joint coming back to its place. He smiled in relief. "How does it feel?"

"A bit shaky, but it's fine."

"Shaky?"

"Well... it hurts a little, but nothing that I can't bear."

"Hey, if it still hurts..." He looked straight into my eyes, anxious.

"It's okay," I said firmly. "Really."

"Well, if you say so..." he replied slowly, reluctantly. "Wait."

"What?"

He took a blue handkerchief from his pocket and folded it into a triangle, and folded it again and again until it was a long, thin piece of cloth. A bandage?

"What are you going to do with your handkerchief?" I asked, though I knew what the answer would be.

"Let's put this on your foot, so it'll be held in place."

"Uh, I'm sure there's no need..."

"Trust me. I can't afford to let you go without making sure that you're completely alright."

I opened my mouth to protest, then closed it again. He must know what he's doing. "You sound like a doctor," I commented, a smile forming in my lips.

"Nah. Just an expert on twisted ankles." He laughed and wrapped the makeshift bandage around my ankle. He tied it down, and I stared, amazed that he didn't need to ask if it's loose or too tight. The knot was just fine: firm but still allowing me to move my foot comfortably.

He lifted himself to sit on the bench. "Can you try standing up?"

I did as I was told. I even walked a few steps. "My foot's really okay now."

"Good."

"Thank you."

"You're welcome." His reply sounded almost like a sigh. "God, that made me thirsty. Care for a Coke?"

"Sure. I saw a vendo machine back there."

"Let's go."

We gathered our things and walked towards the machine. He fished his wallet from his pocket.

"Oh, let me." I said. "You've done enough for today. I should at least make it up to you."

He smiled but said nothing.

"I insist." I said, putting a hand in his wrist. I almost blushed, feeling his skin on mine.

"I surrender." he said, raising both arms.

I swallowed a giggle, and bought the canned drinks. Droplets are still falling from the sky, but mellowed into a drizzle.

"So where exactly in Makati are you working?" I asked, trying to relax.

"A stone's throw away from Paseo de Roxas. I work in a travel agency."

"Really?"

"Yeah."

"I mean, really, I have to throw a stone away from Paseo de Roxas to know where your office is, in case I need to take care of some travel documents?"

He laughed heartily, but I just stuck my tongue out. "Corny," I said.

He stuck his tongue out at me too. When I smiled, he asked, "How about you, what do you do?"

"Well, I work for an agency too, a service provider of some sort. We're part of the sales arm of a bank. Cards, loans... that kind of stuff."

He looked on, listening.

"But I guess I won't do it anymore." I remarked sadly, suddenly remembering my thoughts before our encounter at the stairs.

"Why not?"

"Our company just closed down."

"That's depressing."

"Yeah, and it just hit us, without any warning. We had no clue that the company's losing that much."

"Naturally you need to look for something new."

"I have no choice."

"Well, there's this saying that trials are there to sharpen us. From an ordinary-looking piece of rock, comes a precious diamond, but first it has to go through the skillful cut of the Master, you see?"

I nodded, taking a gulp of Coke.

"Too bad we don't have a vacancy right now." he said.

"Oh, you're too kind."

Without thinking I flashed him a dazzling smile. Come to think of it, the only genuine smiles I had today was for him, because of him.

We stared at each other's eyes. I felt the world stop, and there was this warmth in my heart. Not fire, but a glow far brighter than any burning light.

A sigh escaped my lips. He inhaled abruptly, like being awakened from a dream. He teared his gaze away and looked at the sky. "The rain stopped."

I hesitated and looked up. "Yes." I said weakly.

"Are you sure your foot's okay now?"

"I'm sure."

"Really?"

"Really, really," I assured him, imitating a line from the Hollywood film Shrek.

"Good. Then I can sleep better tonight." He crushed the drink's aluminum container and dropped it in the adjacent trash bin. "Let's go? I have to catch dinner... with my wife."

"Oh." Suddenly the sweet beverage had a bitter aftertaste. With a forced burst of energy I muttered, "Okay, let's go!"

He walked me to my designated waiting area. "Hey, it's been great meeting you." I said, holding out my hand.

He accepted it, and we shook hands. "Same here."

"Thanks again."

"You're very welcome."

We stood in silence, and I looked down. He's still holding my hand.

"Oh, sorry." He looked like he's chiding himself for acting foolishly. "Well, you take care. We don't want any more twisted ankles around here."

He turned around before I could even reply.

I watched as he walked away, watched until he was swallowed by the crowd, and finally disappeared. I exhaled, and it felt like I was holding my breath the whole time I was with him.

Him. What was his name?

I forgot to ask his name.

"Oh well. Of all the things one could forget..!" I thought helplessly.

I shook my head, and waited for my train. As I stepped in I caught sight of something blue.

There it was. Tied firmly on my foot, was his blue handkerchief. The only remembrance this kind stranger left me. But no matter how small his trace may be, the memory of this meeting will always be tied to my heart, long after I remove his blue handkerchief from my foot.


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© chat de jesus
august 26 2005

posted @ 04:02 AM | 18 splashed

August 30th, 2005

zipped lips

"You say it best when you say nothing at all..."

And so the song goes. This may work, but not every time. Sometimes it helps to put your feelings into words. That way everything is concrete; ambiguity won't even dare make a scene.

I wish it were that easy. But don't we all have a *friend* who appears in times like this? His name is Fear.


[edit]
09/02: Children, hindi lablayp ang tinutukoy ko. Though it's the first thing that'll cross our minds, reading an entry like this. Pero salamat pa rin sa komentos

posted @ 12:37 AM | 13 splashed