I do not claim to be kind.
That's for you to ponder on.

I'm loud. Most of the time I speak
Without thinking first. Many things run
Through my mind all at once...
It all goes by so fast that people
End up bewildered trying to catch up
In my train of thought.
That's the weirdness in me.
But there are exceptions... some very
Talented persons can read me
From a ten-mile radius.

You don't need a miracle to witness
My silence. I am capable of being quiet.
And it's not because I do not have
Anything to say. It's because
I do not wish to say it.

I have a sharp tongue and a quick temper,
But these are not displayed unless provoked.
Do not dare to do so.

I am stubborn and proud, but totally sincere.
I am defensive in the face of untruth.
I argue when I see injustice unfold.
Yet I am not as fearless as I appear to be.

I make people laugh, accidentally or
Otherwise. I laugh even when I feel like
Weeping. I do not care to show my grief
As long as I can bear it, giving the illusion
That no pain can touch me. But I never
Said I am invincible, now did I?

I'm not a lady in manner but a true one
At heart. I'm careless but controlled.
I do not possess the innocent face nor
The mysterious personality. All I can
Give you is my honesty.

I am in love. I can smile all day.
I am whole even when I'm broken.
I am whole even though he who keeps me
Together tears me apart.

(c) Chat, 07.19.2004

A memory of Ms. Ria's niece came back to me. Imagine a child of two whispering to you, "Hindi lang kita mahal... mahal na mahal..."

Aaw...

So help me God...

(That line is from one of my old faves at Animax, Ultra Maniac.)

This is what I've been doing for the past week. Read on:

Helow, maneym s Chat. Amtheykhing Amerkhen-akhsent chreyning. The-rsalaat tuluhrn, buhdayhowp tumeykhit as-enjoyabl s paasibl. Ayshuhd phikh-up aan thi Amerkhen intowneyshuhn paedern prit-tee (pridi) eesili aalthow thi ownli wey tugedidis tu praekhtis aalthataym. Ayoos thi uph-endaewn or pheeksenvaeleeys intowneyshuhn mor thanayoostu. Ayv bin pheying atenshuhn tu phitch too. Its layk waaking daewn-a-steyrkheys. Ayv bin taaking tu-a-laat ov Amerkhens leytli, aend they telmee thadaym eesier tu uhnderstaend. Eniwey ay khuhd gowaan-en-aan buht tha imphortnt thing-is tu lisen wel aend saewnd guhd. Wel, waduyu thinkh?